Today is prom at my school… and I’m not going. I don’t care cause I do have a date tonight to the movies but it still hurts that I didn’t get asked or anything.

I’d probably rather not go though now that I think about it… If I saw him and her together I’d probably run away from my date and cry.

I’ve been sitting in the bath tub for two hours crying. I don’t know why I feel this way. I should be happy because I have everything I could ever want maybe except one thing but I feel like killing myself instead.

All my motivation is lost… Literally, I feel like I could die and nobody would notice.

I’m almost glad about what has happened in the last month. I really am starting to find who I am again. I’ve been drowning myself in someone who I wasn’t.

Nobody understands that I’m emotional and that I can’t recover very fast… I’m trying my hardest to keep living and make people proud but it’s so hard sometimes… especially now